This is personal post, not about tech.. if anyone other than me is reading this.. ignore this if you wanted somehting technical.

I can not belive, its been already 3 years since this post. Covid really took 2 years from my life real quick. I dont know If I’d be in a better/ lesser position if it were not for covid though.

I started this draft on august 21 and as i am inching each day towards my birthday and beyond. okey so lets compare the posts from previous years, my predictions and what not.

I did a purchase with a huge sum of money, atleast my own money without the help/assistance of my parents, so it felt pretty good. Sometimes I think maybe its a bad idea? cuz some of the suggestions when I told others were invest it somewhere else and buy it through other means. Like I always say only future holds the truth.

Reflection

For my future self

Idk I feel like my judgement is clouded and I got distracted from my life/long term goal of comitting to open source.. or wait till you hear this delusionsal reasoning.. of maybe..maybe I might have leveled up and found something else? maybe.. Im doing a lot of travel back and forth.. and now since I’be been living with a close friend of mine in the work location, I had to socialize more.. which is not a bad thing.. I can not just sitback.. thinking and typing away on my keyboard.. while they were in the same/next room…

Its like a limbo [removed…]

Encrypting below and not removing, if future me forgets for some reason.

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#OpenSSL 3.1.2 1 Aug 2023 (Library: OpenSSL 3.1.2 1 Aug 2023)
#enc
echo -n "string-to-encrypt" | openssl enc -aes-256-cbc -a -pbkdf2 
#dec
echo -n "string-to-decrypt" | base64 -d | openssl enc -d -aes-256-cbc -A -pbkdf2 
#incorrect password will print random symbols

above text from the images is from 4 years ago, like wtf… I can not grasp time..

As i am sitting here writng in this void space at 1:42:14 am, I think to myslef…wait im drifiting away again..nope. There are lot of distractions during the day time. Sometimes I get the best ideas and solve problems only during the night.. but why.. its not like I can note mute the nose during daytime, I have anc headphones, piano/guitar music, osts, game ost, and etc.

And the above text is from 2020, oh how naive I can be at times? Though I made some progress to contribute to opensource and also progressed in excelling in a new domain. but professionally, I moved to a new company and there I started working in java. Which is not the new domain I told I would pursue. Though for open source I am maintaining some apps for android.

What am I gona do this year?

In terms of Health

During the covid period and after, I became unfit, this i realized after during the tavesl between chennain and hometown, I would feel uneasy flexing hy body and I had no stamina, and when I compared photos, it became obvious.

pic from 2021, during my old office’s tour - (though I look skinny (lost muscle mass after going to Chennai), I am perfectly healthy) after this I gained weight, developed love-handles which is hardest to lose, as I an writing, drafting this.. I’ve already started to workout more, the goal here is to build my old stamina and going back to gym.. yea..back. I used to go to gym on college, at that time I gained weight then when i moved to chennai, lost weight, then when I got back to home during covid, gained a lot of weight..

below is the pic of me from 2023 thought I kinda don’t look unhealthy, I am unhealthy here, the shirt is covering my belly and love-handles.

For this year, my goal is to become fit, already on a xx+ day streak at the time of writing this.

In terms of Job

So here is my goal, I wana move to an even better comapany and expand my knowledge or work here at current compay (vz at the time of writing this) but go to higher designation (SDE II to higher) or even better like my friend who is working remote, find a job that has full time remote. ~review it next year..okey?

In terms of Open Source

With an office job, social life,..nd all the other distractions.. living at the work location.. its difficult for me to maintain a steady contribution to opensource.. I always think about it, but have somthing that has more priority than this. I guess for the coming year too, it will be the same? idk..lets hope for the best!

Additionaly notes

Removed a lot of stuff after reviewing it a couple of times..but some are encrypted, this was in a draft for a long time now.